First off, congratulations on breaking the conditioning ODogg. Not everyone can, does, or even wants to. That's a big first step. Even though it is hard to top DamnYanks post, I will build off it.
For starters, I don't even like you ODogg, but now I respect you, and I would rather be respected than liked every time. It takes balls to admit what you did. So now I feel obligated to respond. It sounds like you have realized the true purpose of the disease we know as social media, which is simply here for no other reason than to emasculate you and create a dopamine loop that feeds off of approval and words of affirmation by strangers you don't even know. This conditions you to accept and participate in group think or the "current thing" in a desperate attempt to conform or fit in. We seek those likes or small confirmations from others to reassure ourselves we believe the right things and act the right way, because we are either insecure or lacking the confidence to go against the grain for no other purpose than it doesn't fit our perception of X topic.
It's okay, it's not you just or anyone else, I've been there too. Sometimes you need to be. If you've ever been interested in a girl, maybe even a few, and start sniffin their *** a little you will realize you almost always need some form of social media presence. If you don't have one, they think you are weird or a catfish if you're using an app, so you have to post on Snapchat or Facebook, maybe take a selfie or gym pic just to play their game, even if you hate it. It gets us all, so there is no shame in admitting it. There is only shame in denying it and continuing.
So these girls, these e-thots, they drive social media. They got grown men making TikToks or other videos behaving like pathetic tryhards just for attention. Grown men ODogg, acting like pathetic husks of a person, all to try and earn some superficial attention from strangers so they can feel better about themselves until the next hour when they need more attention but can't top their last production. Imagine the low value one must have to continue this behavior, and the way they present themselves to the world like a beggar, clamoring for affection. Our ancestors used to be warriors and hunters, now we have been reduced to a virtual serf class hunting for likes, comments, and kind words to fill our shallow sense of worth. But not you bro, not now, not anymore. You see the toxic feedback loop that is designed to illicit these kinds of feelings.
Don't believe me? There is a video out there of the guy who owns/owned the Warriors. He used to be a big part of Facebook and talks about how they designed it to exploit us and our feelings, showing us only the highlights of other peoples fake/cherry picked lives for no other reason than to manipulate or control how we feel. In short, it can mess with you if you use it and let it. And don't even get me started with what social media has done to relationships...
People now live their entire lives around social media, and we all know a few. People who will tell you they love to hike, so you drive an hour to a trail and they're literally 2-3 minutes in before wanting to take a picture and leave. I've had this happen more than once, and I realized it's not about a hike or the experience, it's about making people think you hiked and had an experience, and about the attention and reaffirmation you can get like "OMG BEAUTIFUL YOU LOOK SO CUTE OUT IN THE WOODS IN YOUR LITTLE OUTFIT!!! XOXOXO" or their DM's blow up with "Ayye girl you lookin good, hit me up after that hike bb". That's trash ODogg, that's trash and that's our newfound culture. We are a weak era of people with too many insecurities and self doubt problems that either never existed or exploded in the last decade. But not you, you get it now. You can only fix something when you recognize it, and many don't have the courage to face it, let alone fix it. But not you.
Don't ever look back, and don't miss the laughable virtue signaling and desperate pleas for attention by our peers. Pity them, but do not emulate them, for they are slaves to a system. They are not a free people like you are today ODogg, their shackles are still bound. If you are going to keep a social media account, use it as a joke like I do. I used to have a Twitter and even got a DM from Lenny Dykstra after a while and we started talking more. I did get perma-nuked though after we made fun of Liz Cheney and Nancy Pelosi like a couple of savages but Uncle Lenny came out unscathed and that's what counts.
In short, social media is truly the worst thing to ever have happened to this world. It really is, and I won't go down that rabbit hole, but it is here only to make our lives worse. We can argue if that is on purpose or not (it is) but at the end of the day it doesn't matter because the results are the same either way. Social media serves to demoralize us, to bring us down, and that is a stated fact. Never forget this.
So here's what you do bro. You go out and you reclaim your manhood. You go and buy a gun, and learn to shoot it. You need to feel dangerous, like a man, so you believe it deep down. Doing so will subconsciously force others to see you as such, and respect you more for it. if you can't get a gun, learn to box. Even if you can get a gun, still learn to box. You don't have to spar, but learn to throw hands. You also get to the gym and you start focusing on building discipline and your body, so you can build yourself up inside and outside. You are free as of now, you have taken the first step into seeing past the curtains, which starts with social media. You are 52, so you are almost guaranteed to be losing testosterone, which is normal. Start taking the over the counter pills, 4 a day, to give you a boost, and start shaping who you are, which is not an NPC influenced by everyone elses opinion, but rather your own beliefs. Be grateful you are awake and coming to terms with the fraud that has been perpetrated on us by big tech. You might think I'm joking, but I'm being dead serious. Masculinity is sacred, and you are sacred. Don't dishonor yourself, better yourself.
Go for it ODogg, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. I want to see you improve in everything you do, and hit the gym like a madman, building your confidence to the point that hopefully someday my girl walks in and says "Sorry baumy, but things aren't working out. Besides, I'm ODogg's little slam piggy now". That's what I want to see bro, I want you to continue your enlightenment and fight for yourself because you're worth it.
We get one shot my dude, so even though we can't change our fate, we can rise to meet it.
Now get out there and thank God you have been reborn aware, and hold your head high, because you have earned it. You are on the first step of an incredible journey, so go take back everything you feel was lost and never doubt yourself again you marvelous son of a *****.
You're free now, you got this.